“Let go of certainty. The opposite isn’t uncertainty. It’s openness, curiosity and a willingness to embrace paradox, rather than choose up sides. The ultimate challenge is to accept ourselves exactly as we are, but never stop trying to learn and grow.”
― Tony Schwartz
Openness is the most important in getting to know the world, my place in it and eventually myself. If I lie on my bed in an embryo position all the time, I will have no experience from this life and from the world. I know it is a cliché but it is important for me to get out of my comfort zone. For this I want courage but once I am out of my comfort zone I want openness to guide me. To stay in the new situation and gather as many emotions, feelings, facts and other information as possible.
Honest openness towards people is important for me in two ways. First, I let people get to know my true self and I give them the necessary and true information they need so that they can decide on whether they want to relate to me and if yes, then how. Second, I am honest to myself and I evaluate myself as I am. In general, I am working on accepting myself, the way I am. This is the prerequisite for opening myself and showing my accepted self to others.
Openness helps me in collecting facts. Knowing facts is the most robust way to get to know my surroundings and I want to make more effort for this collection. To make this happen, I accept my desires and prejudices but I decide to ignore them. I ask myself questions: Is this true? To what extent is this my opinion?
I tend to get a little taste from many things but then I always run back to my comfort zone. My summary after such a trial is always the same: “this was enough and this is unnecessary and too hard.” With openness, I can accept the discomfort that comes with getting to know new things or people. If I look at the events and that frequently reoccur in my life I get an idea, which are things I usually run away from but attracted to.
As for now, I am more open than the average in a sense that I question myself and push myself to try new things. What I want to do more is to stay in the experience of new things more and longer. If I give up too early I cannot collect enough information and will be full of regret, as I feel I am. I want to be open, stay open, collect information without judgment and decide with enough information in my hands. This is the most efficient way to get to know and to decide whether I want the stuff in my life I opened up to or not.
All in all, I want to accept myself the way I am and show this self to others as I am. I want to be open to the world to so that I receive the most information from it and let my intuition and my mind decide what I want to do. I want to have no concepts, no convenient rules, just an open learning process based on acceptance.